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What is this, oh, I knew I should have listen when my brothers told me to stay away. Why didn't I listen? Now I am here but where is here? It's dark and I feel wet all over. Liquid keeps coming into me but I am breathing, I think. My body feels like it's swimming in a pool of heavy sand. My mind, so unformed, seem to be unfolding thoughts I didn't know I have.

I bounce from time to time and always has this feeling of wanting to turn and move around but this place is so small, I cannot move anymore than a few turns here and there. Sometimes I strange rhythmic sounds coming from the outside. My eyes refuses to open as if afraid of what they will find. Somehow I knew it was music. The melodies soothes my body and they enter my dreams so easily. I enjoy listening even without any understanding. But then most of the time, I don't know what I am hearing anyway. The sounds, they sound so far away but once in a while a voice booms into my thoughts and awakes my mind, sounding very close by. I could not decipher them as they all sounded alien.

Am I growing along with the walls that surrounds me or maybe the walls are closing in? I cannot tell the difference. Either way, I cannot see where I am in this darkness. My mind refuses to let me know.

I hear a beating sound moving awfully fast. Feel a cold touch that I don't like but my eyes refuses to open as I am afraid all of a sudden. I will my brain to try to understand but it refuses as the beating sound keeps getting faster and faster and louder and louder. Its rhythm keeps going up and down, up and down. I have no idea where it's coming from but I am sure it's close by. Sleepiness takes over me.

A touch pulls me awake and out into a new place. A very bright place. I am now on something soft. I feel its softness and knew instantly I was outside somewhere else. The bright lights are there even when my eyes are shut tightly. I can feel its warmth beaming down me. Something wants to come out of me but when I open my mouth, no sound comes out. I do not know if I want to cry or if I want to speak as I soon feel too tired to even move. Something soft touch my hand and I try to wrap my finger around it.

The beating sound continues this time I know for sure it's coming from inside of me as I am not where I used to be. Still, I could not open my eyes. It's heaviness keeps falling down each time I try to open them. I feel coldness touching me as well as being insert into me. I soon fall asleep as I cannot keep my body awake.

I no longer feel tired. The coldness has faded. The coldness has been removed. The beating sound inside me is now at a steady pace. My mind now more focus as I now realize my eyes are not heavy. Seeing a blur at first but then it focus, showing me a face. A face, familiar and yet I have no memory of it. I am pick up gently into its arms and onto its soft shoulders. I open my mouth and it seem so natural to close them after a breathe escapes. My eyes falls downs and I am falling into a soft dream.

I open my eyes again and this time, there are many more faces, all round, bright and colorful with sounds coming from them that sounds so strange but comforting. "Hi, baby!" "Baby, look at me!" "Hello little baby!" Apparently, that's my name. I feel the warm touch of a finger on my head and then a soft kiss. I fall asleep to the beating of what I know now is my very own heart.